Seriously though at what point? I SI when I feel overwhelmed with emotions, I cut myself and it's like a release. But sometimes I can't even identify the emotions, or it's just a crushing wave of self-hatred, that makes me do it. And now my own good blade is dull, so I'm thinking of stores that are easy to steal from, I'm already selling my belongings to make rent and now am thinking of using the money to stock up on some blades. Also asking my other friend who SI's if she has any extra's. Just tonight I SI'd but for once I just feel it wasn't enough, I only did one arm though. At what point in all this is it an addiction?