My husband and I have been together for two years married for five months. During the time we have been married he has become violently abusive. He name calls, yells, and even on occasion hits me. When things are going good they are great and I couldn't be happier. But when he gets in his moods he is aggressive and hurtful. When he's like this the things he says makes me feel like I'm nothing. Like I have no purpose in life. And even on occasion makes me feel like I want to kill myself, but I'm too much of a coward because I don't want to die. But my reason for not wanting to die is because of the chance that he will change and ill be happier. I love my husband and I don't want to leave him even though I always told myself if I ever became apart of a relationship like this I would leave without hesitation. I can't go to counseling because my husband is in the military and I am afraid to get him in trouble, for fear that he will get mad at me and leave me, or worse end up in jail. Not all the time things are bad but lately it seems more often than not they are. I just need someone to talk to and some guidance. I suffer from mild bipolar depression and have some child hood issues that sometimes don't help our situations...