Hi everyone

For the last few months, I have been severely depressed, often not being able to get out of bed. I finally realize now the source of my depression. It is my separation with my younger brother. My younger brother is 10 years younger to me and we always had a very deep connection. In the last two years, I have been living away from home due to my emotional roller coaster affecting my family. It was very good at first at first, but in the last year I have become very stoic and reticent. I realize now the reason was that I was missing my younger brother. I spent all of my youth with my brothers, older and younger. I just wish that I could be with him again. Lately, I have been worrying that my younger brother misses me and that it eats me up inside that I cannot be there with him. I cannot stand the fact that I have spent so much time away from him. It is unbearable really. I just want my younger brother to spend time with me, but he has his whole life ahead of him, and I don't know if I can re-kindle that relationship with him. Without him, I just feel like my life is meaningless. He was the only one who really understood me. What can I do to get that relationship back with my younger brother?