Moderation is good for most all things, imo.

What disorder(s) do you have? Do you know?

How does it feel, this running into the ground? Is it a mental thing or physical or both for you?

Many of your statements are standard issues that CBT addresses (see the sticky post at the top of psychotherapy forum.) Black and white thinking, catastrophizing etc... countering these will help you not feel so frustrated and desperate, I think.

If it's planning and doing to many things and such, then using a calendar and honest thinking might help. If you are experiencing highs and lows such as with bipolar disorder, then expert help is necessary, imo.

TC