He's in that angry place again. Anything sets him off. He yells and gets in my face pointing and grinding his teeth. Of course he says I drive him crazy, that I make him this way. He will keep going on and on. Saying that I'm making a big deal and I'm fighting when I'm just sitting there. Trying not to cry or argue back or yell. (Which is what I do 90% of the time). I'm trying to own my actions and how they contribute to the problem. So this morning I keep trying to defuse him. Let's stop. Please.
He just can't bring himself back down. I know he doesnt like this. Hes clearly uncomfortable. Yet he doesn't do much to get help or something. In the moment there is no reasoning with him but I always try.
He threatens to get loud and he's leaving and I do this on purpose.
I hate this person he becomes. I hate that I keep hoping things will change. I hate what he's doing to me with this behavior. Its so freaking triggering and I fight to keep it together everytime.
End rant.......
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