Okay so I find myself in general much more depressed on weekends. The reason is that during the week I go to school and I'm socializing with people. On weekends I'm stuck in my house and don't want to go out, because either I have to study, or I just don't want to do anything that my "friends" want to do.

I know that my depression kicks in whenever I am alone for an extended period of time, but it also kicks in on weekends because I feel like I should be out having fun. On Saturdays I volunteer at the hospital for a few hours and socialize with patients for a lot of that, but still by Saturday evening I'm depressed a lot of the time. Friday nights it's not so bad and Sunday it isn't so bad either because on Sunday I feel like most people are staying in and relaxing with work or school coming the next day.

I'm just wondering if anyone has any tips for me on these Saturday evenings, because it honestly gets so bad that I start obsessing way more over everything, including my underlining issue of body dysmorphic disorder. There's a girl I like and were planing on going out, but on the weekends if say she was busy. I am really afraid what I might say to her when I'm feeling so lonely. When I am that lonely I get really irritable and may say something I regret.

My last relationship ended with me relying to much on my ex for everything, because I was only hanging out with her. Things are a bit different now, seeing that my body dysmorphic disorder is much better than it was at that time. Still though I'm staying pretty isolated, so I can imagine myself relying on this new girl a lot for my social needs. She is also more understanding of my issue, as she has dealt with her own image issues.

I actually feel better typing this out. So maybe ranting on here every Saturday evening can be one thing that I can do haha.

Thanks in advance for any advice!