It's hard when healthy people can't get jobs even.

This is just me and I know we're all different, but my type of disability (one of them) gives me the opportunity to work in any field I want, any hours I want. It doesn't come with a lot of extra income at all, but it is full of choices. I chose to work with animals once a week. Sure it was fun and maybe I even did some good, I don't know. But right now I can't do it. I can't even do one day a week. So even if it was totally tailormade to my abilities, sleep hours and interest, I ended up not able.

Also we have a solid tradition of night classes in every subject you can fathom, from languages to cooking, to self help, to arts, to accountancy, to yoga, to navigation, to hunting license and so on. I used to take one night class a week. But I can't do that anymore either.

Sometimes it's just dang hard to just function and keep track of the "simple things". And I'm not very exceptional. I don't have severe mood swings, I don't have psychosis, I don't have social anxiety or agoraphobia. None of the biggies for not being able to work. And still I can't.

Since I'm very talented and intelligent I would probably be self employed if I could work. I would probably make at least four times my disability check. For me at least, it hasn't been a choice not working, I'm not one just thrown into disability and forgotten about.

I wish my opportunities were for everyone. But even with that, I'm not sure how many could work. More than today maybe, but we also have people on the opposite end, people who work that shouldn't, or should work much less. I know several ill people that work through sheer willpower because they have to, they don't have any options, and they are stealing all the energy from their future. I see their mental health get worse, I see them crash and burn, I see them developing new illnesses from the stress of working with an illness.

Sometimes I wished I lived in one of those rare disability/therapeutic communities where everyone has a task they really can handle, and that is worth house and feed. No matter if you can do a little or a lot. Then maybe I could find a task that simply doesn't exist in this kind of existence. Actually one of my dreams is to win a lot of money and build one myself.