So sorry you're living this way.
It is abuse, plain & simple!
Can you go for counseling in the private sector?
Could you go for counseling without him knowing about it?
Is there some place you can go, quickly, if in fear physically?
Walking on eggshells all the time isn't any part of a healthy marriage.
You deserve so much better in a mate & life in general.
Please take care & stay safe.