Aja,

It takes time. In your case you are dealing with the loss of someone so close and dear to you, and also learning to stand on your own two feet. It sounds like you have lost a sense of security with the loss of your Dad.

My mother did not allow me to become independent no matter how hard I tried when I was growing up. This has made it harder for me to recover from her loss in March 1997.

Be patient with yourself, and keep posting.

There are a lot of understanding people on this site.

Hugs,

EJ