You're living a life you never wanted or planned? I've always felt like my life just happened, without any say from me. I never wanted to be who I am now, deal with the things I've gone through, be the person that I am. I've always been self conscious and insecure and never had the drive to change it or make it better. They always say you have the power to change it, but what if you completely lack motivation and courage to do so? I never wanted to be this depressed, jaded, pessimistic person. But I can't remember the last time I ever really believed in me or in anything. I just feel like it will always be this way. If I'm going to fail, why bother.