I ended up cutting last night and have the urge to take a bunch of pills today. I just can't escape the stress and daily hell. I've been in so much pain lately every time I eat so I'm losing weight and barely eating. My husband wants me to go to the doctor but I don't want to see her after going to the er I onow she probably got a copy of the report. And my kids have been little spawns of satan and not listening and just were horrible at my family get together yesterday. I just need to escape and if I have to do that with pills so be it.