I haven't been online much in the past couple of months. For one I have been at my parents house over christmas break. I am back in college now but I have been busy just trying to get back into the groove of things. Well, something did come up that has me so upset that I am appoligizing for nothing again. I had a freind who died in a car accident while going home from work the other day and I found out yesterday. I'm coping with it by just sleeping it away. I know it's not the most productive way of doing things but my doctor just put me on a new medicine for my allergies and it's making me so sleepy. Which means all of this stuff has brought me down due to the fact that I really can't deal with it properly. I really don't know what to do except to just write here for now. I can't seem to cry because i'm just too sleepy to. I just don't know what to do or even how to act right now. I feel kind of numb. Not really feeling anything at all. Any way sorry for not being around much lately. I hope things get better soon so that I can get back to normal again.