(((( Jennifer1084 ))))
You ARE NOT a waste of time. You are a very warm and caring person.
I'm so sorry you've hit another rough patch and hope things smooth out for you soon.
The Courage To Heal can be a very intimidating journey and I'm glad you're going to share it with your T. It's not something most people in crisis are able to handle on their own, nor should they try, imo.
Keep us posted on how your session with T goes and how you're doing. Things have been quiet in the forum lately, so don't think anything if people are slow to respond.