I'm new here. Only a few people in my life know about my self-harm. My family doesn't know and I've never told them. I think they would put me in a mental hospital which I don't want. It's been about 4 years now since I started due to a horrible relationship. I haven't done anything in quite awhile but lately it seems once my bad mood starts, I spiral.

I miss my baby brother who is in his first year of college. I miss my departed grandpa who was more like a best friend. I work my *** off at my job while other's sit around doing nothing. I feel like there's no light at the end of the tunnel. My moods are random and can hit at any moment.

I don't know what to do or how to stop.