Something keeps coming to mind about my last T session that I posted about. Whilst I was sitting, all "locked up" I remember being very distant and trying to pull myself back, I remember rubbing my hand across the bottom of my nose, as if in a soothing motion and then I kinda of grunted an acknowledgment to myself, I think. I remember T saying, "what happened then?" Then I sort of pulled myself back enought to say, "I don't know" like I always say, but this time T said "well maybe in 6 months time or in the session even, we will be able to talk about it and understand it" But understand what? my strange grunt? I guess looking back at it now whilst I'm fully aware, it was like I was having a converstation with a ghost?

I don't know why but I feel slightly afraid to ask her what she meant by this. But something must be bothering me because it keeps popping up into my mind.