Hi

First, I want to apologize for the obvious fact that although I have received help in this forum, I have given none. On the surface, this may appear as selfishness on my part but in reality, it is this beast I am wrestling with that leaves me with little or no motivation to perform even the most basic of tasks. So I come here and post about my problems and then dissapear as quickly as the tooth fairy. Ok, well it's not quite that bad and I am very new here but I DO like to give back what I receive and am very self-consious about it.

Well, I was on the Celexa for about three days. I had been in a gloomy, sad and depressing fog with zero motivation to even drag myself out of bed in the mornings and I was extremely bitter and angry about everything all the time. I'd dredge up thoughts of things that happened 20-30 years ago and just sit there and seethe about them or just sit there staring at the monitor and accomplishing nothing. Just really bummed out. I took a 10mg pill of Celexa in the evening and by the next day, I was feeling noticeably better. Day two I felt really good and so on. Then I stopped because I thought I was starting to have side effects (very mild ones). I just felt like my brain was in another dimmension. SSRI's do play with your mind sometimes but in a good way I guess:-).

So a few days after I went off of it, the depression slowly creeps back and this evening I was starting to really feel lethargic, bummed out, depressed, gloomy, etc and so I popped another one so I guess I'm on it for the long haul now. Does it ever get better or will I be on this stuff for the rest of my life?.

Anyway, just felt like sharing.