I'm giving this question much thought.

I mean, for me it's really hard to know what's the real me. The authentic one. I know it's both part, the adult me and the "child inside" (as they say...)

But in therapy I don't know who I'm supposed to bring. It seems that like for every question and situation I have 2 possible answers/reactions.

For example:

*I get into her office:

My adult-part would say: "Hi, how are you"
My child-part would say: "I've missed you so much I thought I'll hardly make it through the week"

*We sit down, and she just looks at me expecting me to bring something up:

My adult: would bring something up.
My child: would go: "I hate it that you just sit there and not talk to me this is fu**### hard, I can't deal with it."

*If I go blank and t asks what's in my mind:

My adult: relate to what we where talking before rationally, making sort of smart insight.

My child: cry and go "this stuff is really touching me and I am scared and don't know what to say."

*When the session is over:

My adult: smile and say "see you!"
My child: "I hate that I have to go back to the real world were I feel alone and abandoned, and I hate I pay you to make me go through this every week"

I could keep going, but I bet you guys get the point...
Basically I try to keep it to my adult-self all the time, but really feel like my child-self.

Can anyone relate? How do you guys think I can bring this up in therapy? I feel so ashemed...

Annie