I feel for you! I've experienced the same as you in the past. It's an awful and horrible state to be in. Bipolar is a very difficult disorder to properly treat (as you seem to be finding out!). My concern is that you are possibly being over medicated, especially if you're starting on these meds all at once. Upping dosages can sometimes be detrimental. If I were you, I'd mention this to your pdoc. Don't forget you are a part of the decision making process! That is a huge part of our responsibility in dealing with our disorder. I'm encouraging you to be courageous and strong through this medication process. In the mean time, I would steer clear of those things that only cause you more anxiety and frustration. Please know that I'm here to offer you any kind of encouragment you need.