It was 9 years ago that I was dealing with my mother who was dying of cancer & then went through a trauma with the home care person who I caught stealing her ID & abusing her while blaming me for the abuse with the police......but it was right at that time when the stress of it all imploded on my ability to eat. Everything in my life was overwhelming then my mother's situation just made it all worse.

I had a new GP because I had a horrible problem with asthma from a forest fire smoke that covered the valley I lived in & because I was going to him for that, the weight loss I was experiencing from the stress became obvious. It seemed like every where I turned, there was no way to control any of the horrible things that were happening & that along with just feeling sick from the stress making it difficult to eat made everything go down hill until I ended up in the medical hospital....just at the same time my mother actually died.

I think in some ways....I needed to be cared for......& even though it wasn't the intention with the anorexia. My GP had a psycyologist coming in to talk with me every day.......even though I don't really think they understood the whole picture of all the horrible things that had just happened to me & the trauma I went through.....they were more focused on the anorexia.....it was still a necessary part I guess to have someone taking care of me after all the trying to take care of things unsuccessfully I went through.

I think it's sort of normal to go through the not being able to eat with all you are going through.......hope things can go better than they went for me.....but I do understand what you are going through & I think that these are the things that are more seriously involved in our ED's than all the body image crap they try to shove on us as being the reason for it......the more I listen to others.....the more I understand how off base the ED treatment center was the first time (at the age of 43) when I was struggling with it then & I knew it had nothing to do with my body image.....that is only a very small part if any in the actual ED issues.