Thanks to everyone who replied to my thread. It is Monday and I am supposed to hear back from the hospital regarding if they will take me and when to head up there. I got more negative feedback from my dad, although I do realize he means well. My husband, who means well too, also kept confusing me. Part of me is ready to give up and not go to the hospital and part of me knows I will keep going with my behaviors. My hubby works out of town M-F so I am home alone to act out. I can't just turn that off. Because I didn't go to the gym, because he asked me not to while he was here over the weekend, he feels I am able to just stop. I told him I'll be right back at it on Monday. He still does not get it. I will get him in for a family meeting. The question is will it be with my ED therapist here where I live, or at Sheppard Pratt in Baltimore?