Hello,

So I am a college senior on break for thanksgiving, and I have a lot on my mind. First off my senior thesis is close to being due, and I have a ton of work I need to do over break for that. But that's not really what's bugging me. So pretty much I've used the dating site okcupid for about a year now, and been on two dates from it with two different girls so far. So now this one girl I met on the site wants to meet me while I'm in town, but I'm not sure I want to. I saw her profile and thought she was cute and that she was looking for casual sex so I messaged her and kept in contact. Believe me, as bad as that sounds, lonely nights in college will cause you to do that. So now she really wants to meet me and I'm really nervous about it. I don't know what will happen. I'm not sure we will vibe or what. I am incredibly nervous about losing my virginity, even at 21, but my best friend keeps telling me it just needs to happen already.

What makes this so stressful though, is that this is supposed to be my BREAK. I want to enjoy my time with my family and just relax (yeah I have a lot of school work but that isn't stressful like this situation is). It just feels so weird thinking I'm going to go from being with my parents to leaving for the day to go meet some girl who wants to have sex with me... I don't know it just feels... wrong I guess. I'm starting to feel that this stress and anxiety is going to ruin my whole break, as I'm constantly going to be thinking about what is going to happen, and won't be able to relax. This always happens to me with situations like this. Most of all, I am just sick and TIRED of having to lie to my parents about meeting these girls I meet on okcupid, by saying I'm going to just "hang out with some friend from highschool" or something. Yes, I know I shouldn't lie, but how exactly am I supposed to say I'm going to meet some girl I met online?? Might be a bit awkward! So yeah, every time I leave the house to meet a girl, I always have to think of some excuse/story for where I'm going. I'm tired of all this stress! We were going to hang out yesterday but she cancelled on me. It was the biggest relief ever, which is what's making me think twice about this all. How do I get rid of all this stress/anxiety and just enjoy my break?? She seems like a nice girl but I am just really nervous.