My crisis therapist said she wants me to throw away my pills but I'm reluctant to do so. On one hand I do and I've done it before. But on the other hand I want them just in case Im done. I told her this and she said she can't make me do anything but that she's worried about me taking too many when I have a panic attack. So she's giving me more resources to try to stay away from the pills. I see my regular therapist tomorrow and the crisis one again on Wednesday before thanksgiving. After that I'm on my own for the week.