We're both virgins. She is 26 years old and I am 22 years old.

Neither of us are withholding having sex, rather we have both agreed that the circumstances aren't ideal for that to happen, if that makes sense. Nothing she has said or done has made me think she is dissatisfied.

We still have the issue of birth control (she has some medical issues she needs to talk to her specialists about first), and because of how far we live from each other, it makes it harder to arrange times to visit each other. Unfortunately, at this stage, it is still mostly a long-distance relationship.

She says once she is able to find full-time work and a place of her own, it will be easier for us to visit and have sex, and until I find full-time work, it is hard for me to afford the transportation to see her.

But when I look in the mirror, I think, “Ugh. What if she doesn't find me attractive?” Of course she has seen me with my shirt off before, it still makes me nervous that I am too out of shape to be attractive, and I really want this relationship to work!

Living a healthier life is definitely something I am working towards, but when it comes to exercise, it is a challenge to find something that I like to do. If there is one thing I hate, it is the dull, boring, and uncomfortable exercise activities like lifting weights or doing push-ups. I find it hard to commit to an exercise routine that I don't like doing – I've been down that road before!

Instead what I would like to do is join an indoor soccer league in the city! It will definitely help me to be active, I like soccer, and it won't be as boring or tedious as using a treadmill. Sadly, it is kind of expensive to afford indoor soccer here, and I don't have much of a choice with the cost because the winters here are LONG and COLD (like -40˚F this week). Once I am working and can afford it, it is something I would like to do, but for now I haven't found anything I can afford and will like doing.