My special educationist has just left after being here for 2 ½ hour. I just have no power left... She said I'm in a deep depression.
I hate being me! My mind's is spinning around in a sticky mess of thoughts, all the time. I can't stand it! I don't feel like doing one single thing. I'm angry... shouting... because I've had enough... Oh, I'm horrible!

Who am I? I don't know! I always try to please others... I know it doesn't show on the outside... in my behaviour... that I've got Aspergers. Inside I'm fighting all the time! It feels like unless I'm the happy person on the outside... helping others... I'm forgotten about... useless. I'm not only the mother of a child with Asperger... I'm a person in distress- myself. I haven't got the time or power to see to ME.
I feel like a bad mother not being able to do everything on my own. I feel such pressure being the only one that really can reach our son. It feels good and bad at the same time.

I don't know how to manage to get back on my feet again...

Thanks for caring, Fuzzy and jacq10!!!!!!!!