It's hard when you've been depressed for so long. So many people don't realize that depression has no time limits. I think that they get tired of depressed people not getting better. They're disappointed that their support has had no or little effect, so they lash out at the depressed person and tell them that it's their fault. I'm sorry your sister is being mean to you. Maybe she doesn't have the strength to offer you support right now, but that doesn't give hr the right to tear you down. My mother always said that if you can't say anything nice, then shouldn't say anything at all. I think that's very true in many cases!

Your roommate and guys you hang out with sound like jerks.

You're in school, right? Is it near the end of the term? I'm in college and final exams are in two weeks. I've been really struggling with depression and anxiety since the second month into the semester. It has gotten steadily worse as the semester progressed. I'm a basket case now. School pressure has really been getting to me. Also, I had to write a paper which made me examine the current state of my life and where I want it to go. I feel like I'm going to fail. Writing that paper was too much introspection for me, lol.

It's so hard being at the end of your rope. {{{hugs}}}