New here , trying to connect. Trying to justify my madness. I am so stressed and generally unhappy. My life is not how I want it. The most response I get is, well it could be worse. I want to punch people when they say that. Anyway, injuries are a release for me. I can keep self injury at bay by getting a tattoo or getting someone else to hurt me. The latter is easy. Seems there are some sick guys out there that love to hurt women during sex. It suits me however last weekend I was choked pretty hard, to the point of throwing up afterwards. It all seems normal for a while and when I am high on the adrenaline afterwards. Today I have crashed and feel abnormal and wrong for all this leaving me with no self worth...YAY for me, NOT. Like I say, hoping to find others that do this as well so that I can realize I am not the only weirdo out there doing this madness!!