I do, all the time....I cut and hit myself for years as a teeneager and early 20s. Conquered it, or replaced/fell out of it and now that I'm struggling in therapy and at this time in my life, I want to cut again. I have tentatively and secretly begun, just a little, not bad, not deep, not much. But, the biggest obstacle is that I'm doing it in my head so hard! I am fighting the urges to do it physically but think about it everyday, where I'll do it, with what, when etc. It's helping me NOT do it, but I think it might lead me TO DO it again. dunno, but yeah, I really think about it.........(I punish myself in my head)