Some of you may know that over the weekend I was panicking about rather I had upset my T with a text message I had sent. I fear being rejected by my T and when she didn't respond to my text, fear, panic, embarrassment overwhelmed me and I ended up doing SIB.
Turns out, my T never saw the text message because she left her work phone at the office over the weekend and didn't even see it until this morning. Also, she wasn't in the least upset by it. All my panic and punishment was for nothing. I jumped to a conclusion and allowed that to control my emotions all weekend. I talked to my T about what I was feeling but couldn't really talk over the details and circumstances they stemmed from. I noted that I often assume/think/believe the worst. I AM MY OWN WORST ENEMY. I really hope that the next time I find myself in similar circumstances, I'll remember this painful-torturous weekend and hopefully, I'll be more patient. I have to stop assuming the worst and regulate my emotions better in the future. Now, I just feel foolish because know that I know, I can see my actions were really irrational.
Thank you all for your patience and support over the weekend. It was greatly appreciated and I hope I can return the favor to you some day if you need it.

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