Dear Annie's mind,

First of all, welcome to Psych Central!

I can really relate to your experience.

It is very good that your adult-self is aware of how your child-self feels.

I don't know how long you have been in therapy but this is a very good thing to bring up in therapy and imo your T will give both adult-part and child-parts chance to talk things through at a pace you can cope with.

You definately do not need to feel ashamed, in my opinion this will be good for the healing process.

Good luck!