Hello and welcome to PC, there are some lovely people here who have helped me personally alot in the last few months

I used to suffer quite badly with intrusive thoughts when my OCD was a lot worse than it is now. I had thoughts of doing terrible things that I knew I would never do but I was still afraid that I would.

It can be really upsetting so please try not to beat yourself up over the things you are thinking, its not your fault and you don't need to feel guilty or ashamed

If the Citalopram is working for you, stay on it. It took me a long time to not feel ashamed that I needed medication but I'm beginning to realise now that I need it to make aspects of my life bearable and it doesn't matter what other people may think of me needing it

Maybe speak to your doctor about Cognative Behavioral Therapy (CBT) which can be very useful with controlling OCD

Hope some of this is helpful to you!

polkadotpixie