Not wanting to start too many threads for fear of coming off as desperate... (although I guess I may have crossed the line ages ago)...

I hate everything going on now... Feel under-appreciated at work, stressed in relationship and depressed at home...

Just... No one here has the time to listen to me...Everything is so mechanical... My mom has been so bugged that I didn't attend her calls for half an hour (I missed calling her at usual time) and she has been on my back ever since... Saying things like "I don't care about your work... You need to be home soon no matter what work and if you get married, you'll be kicked out...", etc.

My dad is just there... He is the most sweetest person but even he won't listen to what I want. They just want me married soon to someone before I get a chance to go elsewhere in my job (elsewhere means anywhere away from home)...

I do sooooo much at work, yet I am under-appreciated for the sole reason that I am a girl... I can't stay for as long as guys because no one lets me do so at home... I have got the most dead-end project there is...

My relationship needs no introductions... He'll be sweet when needed, abusive when he feels like and won't give a ear when I desperately need to talk...

I don't want to be dependent anymore...20+ years of my life I have been dependent... I am unable to break free... I need to explore my capabilities at least for next 2-3 years (which is a very short time) but... All are pulling me apart... My L with his own ways... Mom and dad with their obsessions to get me married...

I need a ear to listen... I need to break free... Are there interviews which could be attended mostly online and then face-to-face for maybe one round? I need to move away (even abroad is fine - best perhaps)... But none of them will let me go until I actually get a job and I am adamant to go... I can be adamant only after I get a job...

I need a break... I need to be me...I need to be independent and then maybe when it all makes sense, everything will fall into place in life...