There’s this paradox that seems to form as you’re sitting on that comfortable couch trying to explain why you are the way you are. The vibes coming off his tone and body language lead me to the belief, or anxiety, that what he sees for me is not what I am looking for. His attitude points toward assimilation, trying to become ‘normal’. I like who I am, generally, I just hate the control my emotions have on my psyche and behavior. When he talks about what he wants me to accomplish in therapy it makes me uncomfortable because it sound like he wants me to become like everybody instead of learning to be myself. I don’t want to get along with everybody, as if that were even possible, I want to be able to keep and strengthen the relationships and acquaintances I have now, not learn how to make friends: I know how to make friends, I chose not too because I don’t feel I’d be a good friend. He wants me to start thinking about a profession. I’m only 19, I’m not looking to waste it away on anxiety over work. I want to train myself to keep focus, have purpose, be more adventurous, less anxious. There is a disconnection between what my therapist hears and what I am trying to express. What can I do about this? How can I get what I am searching for in my therapy? And, is this just overthinking it? Am I just being paranoid or trying to hide away? Sorry for the rant.