I feel like I am losing the battle with depression. Every day seems to be getting harder and harder just to make it through. I quit living a long time ago then went into kind of a survival mode. For the past couple of years I have just been trying to survive each day and have found very little joy in anything I do. Well sometime in the last year ( I'm not sure exactly when this happened) I have crossed over into just getting by. I feel like a shell who just eats and sleeps. This is not life, it isn't even a semblance of living. I don't know how I can go on I just want it to end. I spend more time on the crisis chat line and this website than anything else, before I could find some peace now I just do it out of habit.