That was scary. It's the closest I've come to being hospitalized. I am angry at the Dr., but the truth is I do feel lost... I don't really feel in control. I think I am really worrying my family and close friend - my friend is flying in especially to be with me for a day! and my parents have decided to come for awhile. I feel like I can't cope... It's embarrassing to have everyone coming because they're scared I'm going to do myself in.