I don't/ can't. Apart from five seconds of losing control in the first session, where my face might have twisted with tears - that's it. All my sadness and pain scuttles away and hides when I try to look at it directly.

I break down in other less than ideal situations though. On the tube. In a shop. My face just leaks, and if strangers notice and are kind about it it gets worse. Always pretend my contacts are playing up

Something I've never really understood though is why tears are meant to be healing?? How does that work? I have never found it so, and I sob silently through the night on a regular enough basis.