Everyone is entitled to their opinion but this is part of my problem. I need to be hurt during the act of sex. Like I say, apart from the obvious release, the physical hurt feeling is good. I feel in some sick twisted part of my brain that I deserved to be hurt I suppose and if I want to feel something I want to feel it good, if that makes sense. Maybe I am lacking an adequate human relationship so this is what I get instead.....who knows eh.