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Originally Posted by regretful
When I was in the throes of depression, I did not know what to do, or where to turn. I visited these forums looking for answers at first. But as time went on, I found support and encouragement here. Being a clinician myself, I was under the impression that I was not supposed to be depressed. But I found myself there anyway.
It was through the encouragement and support of others here on these boards where I came to some realizations: 1. I needed therapy 2. I needed a short course of medication 3. I needed to continuously push myself to do things that made life worthwhile.
Keep pressing on, and no matter what, never give up.
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Thank you... I'm on this forum for a while. I haven't found the answers or the courage to do something. I wish it was easier. I think I am the problem.
I have psychiatric issues since a kid, when I was a kid I had social anxiety. I never went through it, I just learn to live with it and ignore it. I really can't trust people, is very hard to let somoene in, if it isn't impossible. When I was a kid and I was sad, to show people how sad I was I use to tell them to go away, to let me be alone, and they did it and didn't return. I say so many times that I am fine over and over, and deep inside I hope people realize that I want them to help me, but of course they don't. There was even once at kindergarden, in wich I was sad, and my pre-school teacher tried to make me hapier. She lift me, ask me what I have, told me she was getting a candie for me and I bite her, because I couldn't support someone going into my feelings. When someone discovers something of my intimacy I feel so ashamed as if I was naked. My life it just a mess, over another mess, over another...the pile can't stop growing and it seems there is no way to get to the bottom (???).