Angel of Bedlam--I know exactly where U R right now. I am struggling too. I can
give U some suggestions my T has given me. Try distracting yourself w/ something positive. If U need to get anger out,try tearing up something like paper or clay. Another thing U could do is called a crisis line & just talk about how your feeling. Often times that can make me feel better if I can just can talk
w/ my T. It helps me to talk to my T b/c I know he really "hears" what I'm saying. I hope some of this helps. Let me know how U do. Try writing down why
U want to hurt yourself. I'm very sorry you're hurting so badly.