Im scared. I found out two days ago I have an infected, ingrown pubic hair. I don't shave, but when I found a lump, I plucked the hair I needed to away to see and it started leaking pus. The internet said it was probably an ingrown hair and that a doctor would make an incision to let out the pus.
I really don't like to be touched at all. I dress very conservatively, and hate doctors. I have had past CSA and am 18, and have no friends, and emotionally abusive parents.
So anyways, I sterilized an exacto knife and made a 1cm long, 1cm deep cut and squeezed out as much pus as I could. And I sterilized the area. I did that a couple times a day (2-3ish) and used antibiotic ointment as well as antiseptic wipes.
But it didn't seem to get better. Today, chunks of something came out. I don't know if it was like fat from me, or something. But the pus is usually clear, with a good amount of blood too.
But I am really worried that something is wrong, and that I need to see a doctor. I am just really scared to go. And I don't have anyone to go to. So, I am writing here.....