Hi Seiya, Have you ever heard that misery loves company. Well unfortunately some people do not like to see anyone happy if they are not. I think it is great that you are working on being happy and more positive. You say you lost your best friend, but think again, if she was your best friend she would be there for you through the good (sounds wierd huh) With a good and healthy attitude you will make new friends who are thrilled to see improvements in your life