I try really hard not to cry because it feels embarrassing and weak to me. However, since being in patient, I've been allowing myself to cry in front of my T partially because when I'm having a bad flashback, the other staff would run get her to calm me down. A particularly bad flashback often makes me cry uncontrollably out of fear and I think because I have cried in front of her, I feel more comfortable doing it again. But in front of my other T, I do not express any emotion whatsoever.