LOL. I *never* thought I would laugh about last week- I spent four days in the worst anxiety, triggered state I've been in in 20 years, but yet thinking of myself hyperventilating, then reading your post, I had to laugh at the thought I could have *seriously* used those air masks!

Anyhow, I wanted to add- the stuff that is hard for us to breathe through isn't nearly so traumatic or difficult for therapists to listen to. If yours has been practicing for any length of time, she'll be used to your kind of disclosure. Sure the details will be somewhat different, but she has heard scary, embarrassing, painful, cruel, awful things before. Even a new therapist has lots of training around all these things. Sad but true, CSA is very very common and hearing about and working through other embarrassing things like sexual fetishes, sexual addictions, other addictions, disorders, relationship explosions, extreme habits, etc. are all an expected part of a therapeutic career. Hang in there! Don't parachute out yet! I'd be shocked if she wanted to.