Hi Forsaken,

Sweetie, I do hope to get to know you. You sound like such a caring person.
I understand about the depression. I started having depression when I was 14. I'm 52 now. A lifetime of gloom and tears. Not wanting to live anymore. Not wanting to face anyone. Just want to disappear.Sleep all the time. Covers pulled up over my head.
These are just a few things that I have gone through. I understand how depression can bring you to your knees.
I wish you all the best.
I hope that you have gone to your doc and am on some sort of meds.
It isn't your fault. It is a chemical imbalance in your brain. There is nothing you can do about it. The meds will put the chemicals back the way they are suppose to be in your brain.
Wishing you a great day!
Hugs,
Boopers