Anony,

Gosh, you are really struggling right now, huh?

I'm so sorry that it's hard for you and your family right now.
Hopefully, things will get better.

But, I am more worried about you right now. It sounds like you are worrying way too much about things you can't change.

Maybe if you start doing things for you. You should be number one. Concentrate on one thing at a time and see if that helps.

I wish for you peace and happiness. I hope that you find a job that will be something that you like doing.

Best wishest to you!!
Hugs,
Boopers
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((Anony)))))))))))))))))))))