Thank you sooooo much to all your replies!! Exactly what I needed to hear. All part of the acceptance of why I got PTSD in the first place.

Taking it slow, being gentle with myself.

Thank you all so so so much!!

Active learning is an amazing technique. I think the acronym is SQ4R if you want to google it. My brain is not ready for it yet but I can see that one day it will be.