my heart goes out to you right now.......I was in an abusive relationship with husband cheating..........it was the worst time of my life...... staying thinking that the worst was yet to come if I left the relationship........granted it was difficult sometimes I cried until there was nothing left ......really there were some terrible times.......he would not let me leave with the children......would not let me take anything other that that which I stood in.......he tried everything possible to break me and make me dependant on him......hit me.....humiliated me.....blamed me.....cheated........in the end something just clicked and I realised that he couldn't make me feel anything........and I worked out that only I can make myself feel things......he could not take my self esteem.......self worth.......as I would not let him......and I had to leave him to protect myself and my children and begin to love myself and love and care for my children.

I had nothing and started from scratch.......liking and then loving myself and then I was able to be the mum I wanted to be and be strong for my children. I built a home for us and was happy for the first time since I had met him.

No one can take anything from you or make you feel anything......you just have to like yourself enough to care for yourself.........sometimes the only way to do that is to leave them and heal and nurture yourself...........that process may seem daunting and difficult however, staying is sometimes far more difficult.......you will work out which for yourself I am sure........sending you a big hug and lots of support x