Thanks so much for your words! It helps to know there's others like me. I think I understand that when I'm feeling discouraged it's because I have accepted an idea about my self my condition that is not logical or rational. Things like 'I'm too old and I'm making a fool of myself.' Then I look at all the old guys still working and playing. I think there is a right way of thinking about life where my goals are legimate and possible. Within that framework of thought I get the go-ahead, that I can still be a player. And with that kind of motivation I probably would have the ability to reach my goal. It's the faulty thinking you have to watch out for.