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alexandra_k said:
What are the different things that you are feeling split about? There must be some way of integrating them / figuring out what (all things considered) you most want to do or there might be some way of figuring out a comprimise.

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Main CONFLICTS that live within ME due to DID - and that create much unwanted STRESS

1.) I want to work / I do not want or like to work (to stressful)

2.) I want some friends again / I do not want friends

3.) I love my husband and wish to grow old with him / I hate him and want to leave, but don't - can't

4.) I want outside recreation with others / I do not care if I ever have outside recreation (stay home)

5.) I love my Marriage & Family / I wish I was single and living on my own (responsible for me only)

6.) I want to Live and to Heal / I hate having to live (some times)

7.) To remain FAT and be unhappy or be happy even though I am FAT (or) Loose the Weight

8.) I like taking care of my family & house / I do nothing all day long, except cook dinner - for I must

9.) I like having people around (i think- ) / I hate the site, sound & disturbance of others (just leave me be)

10.) Sleep don't Sleep, Eat don't Eat, Shower don't Shower, Get active Stay lazy - unmotivated


I Just can not win due to my DID and the strong force it has over ME and my LIFE


<font color="#880000"> .... The BEST thing that has happened within my DID conflicts is that WE both can now accept ME (looks - body - and all) just the way I am, we have both matured past the physical. </font>


LoVe,
Rhapsody -