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Originally Posted by AmyFed07
I'll be honest with her. And I'll tell her that I did it again this morning. Made a mark on my wrists but didn't actually cut it.  I can't skip Thanksgiving..it's the only way I'll eat until Friday. I'm such a horrible mother, can't even keep food in the house because we're paying for my oldest brother to live here. I just want to give up, I'm done fighting, done trying to fix everything and make everyone happy.
Tried talking to a suicide chat last night and the lady made me feel worse by telling me that I'm teaching my kids how to cope. Just what I need to hear when I already blame myself for my kid's problems. 
ETA: It's a week before that time of the month...TMI, sorry, but I know it has a lot to do with how emotional I am all of a sudden. |
AmyFed07--First of all,don't worry about the "tmi". I'm a R.N.(disabled b/c of my
psych problems) so there isn't anything as tmi. I agree that the onset of your menstrual cycle is probably making your symptoms worse. I am sorry that the
Crisis Line worker made U feel worse. One would think that workers would B trained enough to know that making a person feel worse would B a bad thing. I'm glad that you were honest w/ your therapist. It doesn't do any good to have
them if you're not honest w/ them. I know,for me,it may be difficult for me to say necessary things to my psych doc & T,but if I don't say them I know that I'm
not going to get the help I need. I feel blessed to have a great psych doc & T.
I know it's hard,but try to hold it together!!!
