You can spin this to yourself anyway you like, tell yourself it didn't happen because I didn't want it to, that's not true. You are fooling yourself if you try to make yourself believe that. We had been close to meeting up now or talking properly for the last 3 months, but we still haven't. All I said is this can't go on forever, we've been playing this game now for the last 4-5 years, we can't do it over and over again and getting nowhere. If you had wanted to meet up we could have done it by now easily, you could come round right now if you like, as I said i'll always talk to you, I've always cared about you. It's very difficult though when you keep pushing people away, even you admit that you do that. There's only so much of that someone can cope with before they've had enough, yes I know I wasn't perfect but I would never have given up on you if you still wanted me around. If you keep pushing harder enough even the most stuck thing would eventually move. It was all vague promises that something might happen but as soon as I started saying ok when we meeting up then you'd ignore me. You can come and see me if you want to, I would love to see you but if it's really not going to be happening then we need to be sensible about this and stick with the decision. So, if you do want to salvage something with me then come and see me. otherwise look forwards.